User blog:Fernflight/Something to Say

I was talking to Neha on Skype. I'm going to show you what I said, just plain copy/pasted straight from the conversation.


 * "Tell [Leggo] that I can never forgive myself for that either. Especially with Cinder being like a daughter to me. I don't know what possessed me to say any of that. I've been a bully, a jerk, a complete asshole to the users on there. 


 * This incident has lingered in my mind, and no matter how much I express my opinions, it should have never gone that far. I should have talked to her privately about it. I shouldn't have let my emotions get the better of me. 


 * I have single handedly destroyed friendships with people that I love. Leggo, no matter what she says about us "only being co-workers", it was more than that. I could talk to her, fangirl with her, and laugh with her.


 * She was a friend of mine. I still can trust her. I can trust her because she was brutally honest with me. I needed to get the fuck out of that place and change. What's being done with the wiki is amazing- people working together to make the wiki a better place. My ideas didn't fit what was being done with the wiki, so I shouldn't have gotten worked up when they were shot down. She's trying to do what's best for the wiki, and for it's users, and I was being too much of a selfish brat to realize it.


 * [1:12:50 PM] Neha: Did you ever think of doing a VoNC on Leggy?
 * [1:14:05 PM] Kyree: Yes. I was being selfish. I had no valid reason to VoNC her when she was only doing what was best for everyone.
 * [1:17:07 PM] Neha: ....
 * [1:18:29 PM] Neha: wow
 * [1:20:29 PM] Kyree: I was being selfish. I had no reason to even think of doing one. She's a great leader, friend, and rolemodel to all. She's respected. And I can't put myself in front of everyone else and VoNC someone that clearly deserves their role just because I'm a selfish brat.
 * [1:20:51 PM] Neha: So, why did you want to?
 * [1:20:59 PM] Neha: Or was it just because you were pissed at her?
 * [1:21:09 PM] Kyree: I was just pissed at her.
 * [1:21:24 PM] Neha: Are you still pissed at her?
 * [1:21:30 PM] Kyree: No."
 * [1:21:30 PM] Kyree: No."

I've been selfish, and that's not fair to any of you. You deserve better. 17:24, 07/11/2013